I'm in spiritual pain. I feel like I've been let down. I don't know why this is happening to me and I've lost my sense of purpose in life. This terrible thing is consuming my life, has attacked my core values, and has made me question my religious beliefs in a way I never thought possible. At a time when I should be turning to my faith for comfort and solace, I'm finding it hard to do so. I'm discouraged. I feel so disconnected from what I used to wholly believe in and from my church, even though deep down I know that's probably just the trauma talking. I know bad things happen to good people sometimes. I just can't reconcile this knowledge with my spirituality.